It's Over

I can't believe it's over. October 30, 2013 was the day when my heart was shattered into pieces. It feels like my whole world crashed. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to get up. I'm so broken.

I watched the livestream of GMA where they confirmed the break up and I silently cried and sobbed  in the corner of the room after I watched it. I felt like I lost everything. Nick, Joe and Kevin are not just an inspirations to me. They are my heroes.... my everything.

Right at the moment, I want to hug all the Jonas Fans who felt the same way. Others don't have any idea how devastated I am today, only Jonas Fans understands. I feel them. We feel each other.

But in the other hand, I want to thank Nick, Joe and Kevin for making me who I am today. I'm so thankful for the great memories. And thankful for gaining new friends from this awesome fanbase who I also considered as my family.

Honestly, I never thought I will become a big fangirl until the Jonas Brothers entered in my life. They made color in my boring life. Their music makes me feel wonderful. And whenever I get sad, their soulful songs heals my broken heart. Since then, their songs became a drug to me. I was addicted to it and I cannot bear to live without it. 

The Jonas Brothers really made a huge impact in my life. But now that the band is over..... I can't help to be sad. Of course I was a fan for many years, I grew up with them so it's not easy to move on. And growing up with them was the best thing I've ever done in my life. No regrets. It's just sad that we're not going to see them perform together again on stage. I thought it will be forever but not all the things have happy endings and everything happened for a reason.

But I'm very very thankful and blessed that I got to see them live performing on stage once. October last year in Manila was the best time of my life... but October this year was worst ---- my favorite American band from New Jersey that I've ever loved for years...... is OVER.

Well as what they said "IT'S OVER FOR NOW" which might mean it's only temporary... that it will be just a break just like they did before.  I am not disappointed with them, I am THANKFUL. They might be over for now as a band, but not over as BROTHERS. And I respect every decision they made. I know that they care and love their fans so much so please don't think that they don't care at all. But for me, I will support them no matter what happens. You know what they say? "ONCE A JONAS FAN, ALWAYS A JONAS FAN" and I will never ever break that promise. How bout you?

Nick, Joe and Kevin will be always in my heart. I WILL LOVE THEM FOREVER.

THANK YOU JONAS BROTHERS!

                                        Credits to Marvin Tan for this awesome video!





P.S

The Jonas Brothers is over for now but it doesn't mean that this blog is over. I'm not going to delete this blog because this will be one of the things to remind me how much I loved the Jonas Brothers. I can't even believe that I have this blog for my fangirl feelings. Lol. But surely it will not be my last post. So see yah next time. :)

Peace. Love. Jonas

©LeanMiles

Jonas Brothers Merch

Today, my sister recieved a mail notice from her/our friend in US. When we recieved it, we are so happy and excited because we've been waiting for that package to come. Yeah, we know that the package will arrive this month because our friend told us about it.

But seriously, we did not expect that our friend will buy us JB merch during their JB tour in US. Our friend went to the concert of the Jonas Brothers in San Francisco, California last August 2013 and I was even jealous of it.

But then, before the concert starts, my friend sent me some photos of JB shirts and told me that it was for me. OMJ. I was so happy that time when I saw the shirt. I was really excited to wear those plobnrg Jonas shirts but then it need to be shipped here in the Philippines.

And after a little bit long of waiting, finally it arrives today. Oh my God. You really have no idea how happy we are. I just can't believe it. Feels like heaven. Oh My Jonas!

Thank you so much to our friend who trily understand our fangirl things!!!! Mwaaaaaahh! xx


 ©LeanMiles

Jonas New Photoshoot!!! (Behind The Scenes)

WARNING: The photos below are too hot to handle and might give you a heart attack. BEWARE!!!! :P

OH MUSCLESSSS!! ASDFGHJKLLL!!

 

ARE YOU STILL BREATHING??? 


GLAD YOU ARE! Lol.

 I CAN'T WAIT FOR V!!!! How bout you?

©LeanMiles

It's A Girl!!!

Finally, Kevin and Dani just announced the gender of baby Jonas and its a girl!!! Yaaaayyy!

I'm so happy. I really wanted a baby girl in a Jonas family since they are a family of all boys. Finally!

But even before they announced it publicly, Kenielle made a poll at the Jonas Brothers app on what are the guesses of the fans, if it's a blue or pink. Of course I voted for pink and  most of the fans voted the same as I do. Sixty plus percent of the fans who voted for pink, and thirty plus percent for blue according to the poll.

Well, I guess most of us fans wanted a baby girl so yeah, God heard our prayers. But hey, even Kevin wants a baby girl too so it's a dream come true for him.

Finally, he'll be having a princess and will become a father soon. I'm so excited for baby girl Jonas! How bout you? Of course you do. Lol

Well, I guess baby girl Jonas is so lucky to have a great parents and grandparents. And so lucky to have the HOTTEST UNCLES in the world. Oh my Jonas.
Surely, Joe, Nick and Frankie will be a great uncles. But I just hope that they wont spoil her so much and won't be OVER protective to her.

And I'm pretty sure that she's beautiful as her mother Dani. Gosh, I cannot wait!
But I wonder what will be her name? Maybe Madison Grace Jonas as all expecting to be Kevin's daughter's name? Or maybe they'll choose other names. I don't know but let's find out when she comes out. Everyone is expecting for her early next year. It's gonna be a great start for the year in a Jonas family, I'm pretty sure.

So congrats Kevin and Dani! God bless to them and to their baby. I'm beyond happy for them.
Xx

©LeanMiles

Nick Jonas is now taken

Can I sob a moment please? *sobs* </3

As a HUGE fan of Nick Jonas (who-ever-dreamed-to-be-his-girlfriend), I cannot contain my emotions when I saw pictures of Nick and his rumored girlfriend kissing, hugging, and doing some sweet actions to each other.

Can you feel me? My heart feels like broken and shattered into million pieces. My heart feels like being stabbed by a sharp knife everytime I see those pictures of them on the internet. My heart is bleeding deep inside. I cannot take this. This is the most unhealthy Jonas news for me. :'(

I know I should be happy for Nick because he's not alone now, and he seems happy with her. But I cannot deny myself that it hurts me so bad. I just cannot tell the world that "Hey, I'm so happy for Nick. Can you see? I'm so happy!"  but deep inside I AM NOT and I just can't fake it to tell them like that.... or maybe not right now... maybe when my heart healed by time.

I know you may think that I'm crazy (hell yeah, I'm crazy for him) that I am reacting like that. You might think that I have this crazy mind and have these wildest dreams that I can be his girlfriend someday. But hey, as a fan I cannot avoid that. And I am pretty sure that I am not alone. I am absolutely sure that hundreds or  thousands or millions of fangirls out there who felt the same way as I do. Trust me, I know somebody who felt the same way, and we just became buddies after our heartbreaking conversations bout our heartbreaking situation with Nick hot Jonas, oh well, this is insane.

Olivia Culpo (his girlfriend) is such a lucky girl who captured Nick's heart. But in the other hand, Nick is also lucky to have her. Hellooooo, she was crowned as the MISS UNIVERSE 2012 and she's so stunningly beautiful. They are lucky to each other. They fit perfectly and I heard, they both have passion when it comes to music. And I like her better than the other older woman who used to date Nick before. No Nick, not for older woman okay? No. So okay, Olivia is better.... maybe the best?

I don't hate Olivia for dating Nick. I am not a hater. I am just jealous of her because she now have the man I love. I just hope that they are happy for each other. I just want Nick to be happy. And how I wish that I was Olivia. She's so lucky!

But even I like the NILIVA couple, my lonely heart can't still move on over the fact that Nick is no longer single. I have no chances anymore. Never in my wildest dream. Well I'm trying to accept it, trying to move on, trying to get Nick Jonas out of my head, I'm trying and keep on trying.... and I hope I succeed.

And now, as for the process of moving on, I am having this twitter break (lol). I haven't been online on twitter these days just to avoid those Nilivia sweet new photos which totally breaks my heart everytime. I'm doing this for good, I'm so tired of heartaches anymore. No. Just no.

It's confirmed but I love the fact that her sister is a Jonas Fan. I guess, she also feels the same way like I do. But lucky for her because Olivia is her sister, she (her sister) can be with him someday.... or he might be her brother-in-law in the future? Aww.


*sobbing* :'((((


Wanna sob with me? If you feel me, come on, let's go to the corner and sob together. :'(

I'm sorry if this blog post is sooo dramatic. It's the only way for me to speak out of what I feel. And if you are still reading up to here, congrats. Lol. Joke. I don't even know if someone is reading my blogs.

Anyway, I'll just be happy for him (even it hurts) and just support them on their music, most especially their upcoming album this September. Well, this is what a fan should do - is to support them, right?

And speaking of their music, I can't wait for V album!!! September is the meaning of SOON! Finally! I'm so excited! How bout you??

Anyway, I made an acapella cover of their song Neon. I love that song very much. If you wanna hear my crappy cover (lol) click here.

P. S. my singing voice is not as good as Nick so yeah, I'm sorry if I break your eardrum. :P


BYE.

Peace. Love. Jonas


 ©LeanMiles

Nick Jonas' New Tattoo

Nick already had the first tattoo on his arm and it was the word "Mercy". But this time, he got inked again for the second time and he posted it the his instagram account.

"God is greater than the highs and lows."

I definitely fell in love with it when I read the meaning of it. It was really a great tattoo I must say. ( I wanna have one. Lol. Just kidding )

His tattoo is simple but meaningful, same as Kevin's and Joe's tattoes, and I love it that way. I don't like huge tattoes though, those are creepy and not clean.

I just really hope that they wont fill their bodies with big tattoes. Small tattoes were enough, right?

Well, if I get a tattoo someday, I guess I'll put their names on it because they gave meaning into my life.

They are my heroes without capes and my angels without wings. I will love them forever til eternity. <3


©LeanMiles

Say Hello to Nick HOT Jonas!

OH MY GOD!

OH MY JONAS!

I CANNOT BREATHE!

OXYGEN PLEASEEEEE!

HEAVENNNNNN!!!

YUMMY!!!

ASDFGHJKL!!!! :O

 *drools*

 *speechless* <3 __ <3



THOSE WERE MY REACTIONS WHEN I SAW THAT FREAKING HOT SHIRTLESS PHOTO OF NICK. I CAN'T BELIEVE OF WHAT I SAW. I WAS LIKE, "AM I DREAMING? OMG!" BUT HELL YEAH! IT WAS FOR REAL. ASDFGHJKLLLLL :O

IT WAS HEAVEN ON EARTH. OH MY GOD. HOW CAN I KEEP CALM WITH THAT PLOBNRG PHOTO? TELL MEEEE? LOL ( sorry for my capitals. I'm so hype! Lol )

Well, I just wish he post more shirtless photo of him. Hahaha. Okay, I'll behave. Hehe.

I hope everyone is still breathing after that photo. Lol. XD




 ©LeanMiles